A walk down the road

I’m walking through the lake park, my eyes experiencing aesthetic sunrise. The feet took a halt, struck by realisation. Mesmerised by the reflection of the sky in calm waves of water. I feel inept to describe sudden commotion of emotions. I look for a bench to settle on as I go weak in the knees.
On my quest to find a rusted bench with its green paint withering in a quiet corner, I see life in a strange light. I spot a group of squirrels bouncing hither thither. I observe one at a time, my heart wondering how this world looks like through the eyes of a squirrel. How do I look to it as I attempt to touch its skin and fail terribly because of its spontaneous reflexes? Can it see the water as I see it? Do the surroundings appear green to it too? Does it also feels something inside? The mind in me mocks and says, “No, Dimwit! Only you’re the one who thinks of herself as a different entity. Everything else is in sync with nature. You too are a part of it, only if you realise.”

I’m petrified by my own heart that feels conflicting emotions and a mind that taunts. I give in and pearls of water roll down my eyes. I’m like a mimosa plant open to attack. My leaves closing in, I rush back home to immerse myself in this concrete jungle, away from contemplating life. I know I can’t run forever but today I escape.

Poor words.

Hola people!
It’s been a long time since I had a conversation with you all. Today I am making this post not to bore you with my poetry but with my poor words. It’s only words and words are all I have to take your heart away. See this post is unedited and coming totally from the heart so you better get ready for some laugh riot because you know I am such a mess. Oh btw I am just accepting the fact that I am, deep down I know that you all are messed up in your life in one way or the other. Therefore, I have a few words of wisdom to share because ever since 2015 has come I have had so many ups and downs that when I was trying to find peace I came to realise that this life is pretty simple if you look at it that way. Just be aware of your actions and what you’re doing. If you’re reading, read with awareness, if you’re planning to commit a suicide do that with awareness as well. And if you know me personally, I am the least aware person who is aloof and lost in her own world of fantasy but I am learning and it’s not bad. Infact, once you’re aware of the pros and cons, you do it with much more passion. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Don’t be an asshole. Don’t be a bitch. Just live with your heart. Let your mind be your heart’s slave because mind is way too calculative. Life is a flowing river and not some mathematics. And be honest. Don’t be a hypocrite. This world has enough hypocrites. Be you, the whole world will adjust. Also express yourself. Simply express. Good, bad, love, hate, lust, friendship, anger, sadness; anything and everything. Definitely you will be vulnerable but trust me it’s worth it because you’re not going to lose in any case. Either you experience tremendous joy or you learn. Also stop playing blame games, live for yourself and you are responsible for all that is happening in your life. Take responsibility for it and Live. Laugh. Love.
Tata!
Hope you have a smile on your face as you finish reading this! 😀

Realisation

Humans are blessed with brilliant minds and beautiful hearts. We are gifted with thoughts and emotions. We create dual worlds unknowingly and then often mix them up. But there are moments when there is clarity though it is there for a couple of minutes yet it is a learning experience if the realisation strikes. Realisation is important to deal with the situations that life puts us in. Realisation is often hard to sink in but if it does, it gives a feeling of enlightenment. 
Transient it may seem…
Difficult to figure out whether its true or false…
Realisation brings clarity…
That is hazy…
In quest to find the answers…
We end up with new mind boggling questions….
And its a saga that continues forever…

Mumma, How did I do this year?

I did a post on New Year Resolutions when I was just starting with this blog. Almost one year later I have decided to revisit what I wrote, as a kind of look-back exercise. I am grateful to myself (which I am quite frequently) for starting Blog Number Ek, because now I can actually judge my one year younger self and tell him he was awesome.

Well, unfortunately, that is not what I am going to do. This is more like a short report card about how I fared and what I accomplished, gain, lost and learnt in the past year. Why the need? Heard about Swadhyaya? No? Here you go: Swadhyaya.

For a quick recap, I wrote about how New Year resolutions are unavailing promises we make to ourselves, and how we will do something that is required of us regardless of when the New Year is. For instance, my younger self (let’s call him batman) has wanted to shed some extra kilos since time unknown. But a hundred promises and resolutions didn’t help, he could never do it. Reason: Batman was, and is, getting a lot of female attention already, he never felt the need to lose weight.

So, did I do what I needed to? Partly. I started **&%%#&*(@@*^ *#&^($& (*@^@$( $^^@$* )@$(*@($@(#&%&) &^%@!$$^ *#@##&* !#(@#(*# **&^#@@^% **&^%@^&@*( @&#^@#^@& ^%!%@^^&!@# **&%%#&*(@@*^ *#&^($& (*@^@$( $^^@$* )@$(*@($@(#&%&) &^%@!$$^ *#@##&* !#(@#(*# **&^#@@^% **&^%@^&@*( @&#^@#^@& ^%!%@^^&!@# **&%%#&*(@@*^ *#&^($& (*@^@$( $^^@$* )@$(*@($@(#&%&) &^%@!$$^ *#@##&* !#(@#(*# **&^#@@^% **&^%@^&@*( @&#^@#^@& ^%!%@^^&!@# **&%%#&*(@@*^ *#&^($& (*@^@$( $^^@$* )@$(*@($@(#&%&) &^%@!$$^ *#@##&* !#(@#(*# **&^#@@^% **&^%@^&@*( @&#^@#^@& ^%!%@^^&!@# **&%%#&*(@@*^ *#&^($& (*@^@$( $^^@$* )@$(*@($@(#&%&) &^%@!$$^ *#@##&* !#(@#(*# **&^#@@^% **&^%@^&@*( @&#^@#^@& ^%!%@^^&!@# in the college*.

This was just to get you started. So take some time out today, sit by yourself and think, “Did I accomplish what I wanted to?” Dig up any past posts you made from January (facebook, twitter, blogs, emails) and see what you wanted back then. Did you work for it? Are you satisfied?

The reason for doing this so early is that with almost one month in hand, we can catch up with things we couldn’t and end this year on a high note, make it a success! Awesome right? I know.

This will help you chalk out a plan for the rest of the month, make it more productive. So when the countdown to the new year begins, you can do away with the boring reverse counting and proclaim to everyone nearby, I Rocked \m/

Ciao!

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Last Chapter

So, December is here and I feel like taking a break from Poetry and share some thoughts. We all have just a few days left to write the most beautiful chapter of 2014. For me, this year has been a roller coaster ride but I’m not here to describe that ride. All I got to say is give one last lookback to this year. Make amends, learn from your mistakes, and do what you feel like because if you keep waiting for the right time, it won’t ever come. It’s here and now. Write the final chapter with full of enthusiasm and carefree attitude because time and tide wait for none. Go ahead and make history. Because if you do this now, I’m telling you my readers that you’d experience pure bliss. Looking forward to a new life and a new beginning with 2015 just few days away! Have fun people. 😀